The Magic Kitchen

Rita says she’d like some soup. It’s Christmas Eve, so my reaction is to ask her, “What kind of soup would you like?”

Oh, let me see, something vegetably, maybe a bit potato-ee. You know, peas and carrots and lots of broth, a dash of salt, onions, and celery; a chunk of chicken, perhaps—something like that. Mmm, hearty stuff that sticks to my bones, warms my toes and fills my nose with memories of mother and father and sister and brother all gathered around the table many years ago. Just one big, happy family—filled with wonder, thankful for each other, hands clasped in prayer—the one now living in this photo album I’ve been thumbing through all night.

Can I see?” I lean in and begin to absorb the flavor of her memories as her fingers weave back and forth through the pages of faded imagery.

silent night . . .
the warmth of her feet
by the embers

I turn my attention to her kitchen and quickly realize I am in a bind. There’s practically nothing in the fridge—the shelves are nearly bare. The stores are closed, and the gift I brought her, a woolen sweater, is clearly not edible. Well, in the fridge, in an otherwise empty drawer, I find half of a raw potato. That’s a start, I mutter to myself. Carefully, I slice and dice it—skin and all—then back to the icebox to see what’s left to see. 

Aha, a box of chicken broth tucked in the back, but wait, the expiration date, December 25th, 2022; whew, a bell’s jingle to spare. Back to the fridge, check the drawer again. Waitwhat’s this? A stalk of celery. Hmm. Chop, chop, chop—into the pot. That must be just about it. But perhaps it’s worth another look. Let’s see . . . nothing in the freezer, but when I turn, there on a hook, a bunch of carrots like ornaments on a tree. Ho, ho, ho, into the stock, chunks of root go plop, plop, plop. 

One more look in the bottom drawer, simply because I cannot seem to trust my tricky eyes. To my surprise, an onion appears. With tears, I peel and marry it with the soul of the stew.

Did I leave the freezer door ajar or did it just swing open ‘cuz the unit’s out of level? Hmm. A good thing either way, ‘cuz I wouldn’t have seen the chicken I missed on my first expedition through its wintry depths. The bird will have to thaw in the pot. I ease it in. The broth’s getting hot.

Pinch the last pinch of salt from the shaker; bring the aromatic dish to a simmer.

I sit at the kitchen table watching snowflakes twirl in the light softened by the frosty window. When the vegetables and meat are tender, I pull out a serving tray, arrange a bowl, spoon, and napkin, ladle a savory helping of soup, and decorate it with sprigs of celery leaves. 

Carefully, I back my way through the swinging door from the kitchen space into the dining place. 

As I turn to call out Rita’s name, I am met with a bewildering scene. On the table, fully set for a feast, sits the largest turkey I’ve ever witnessed. Surrounding a slew of holiday dishes and an unused trivet near the turkey’s tail, two kids sit with a pair of grownups—hand-in-hand—reciting the Lord’s Prayer. There is one unoccupied chair. They all look up together, and together they smile at me.

stockings filled with candy . . .
the sound of many hooves
prancing in the snow

No Quarter

fields of cotton . . .
we sing “Amazing Grace”
with the larks

Pine shadows rest on the flowering dogwood. Steadfast, we’ve marched to this place. The Southern Cross and Old Glory wave—colors of this April day. Soon the sky will turn to smoke and spider lilies will weep. Rows of soldiers stand in the oaks as we kneel near the Poison Spring. A cloud obscures the sun, and I hear the battle cry. The air swells thick with blood. Recalling their chains, I pull the trigger.

wasps
in the beehive—
family feud

Once, twice, they charge, then scurry back to their holes. Hurrah! The eagle soars.

But songs of the master’s whip haunt this battlefield. As ghostly boots breach lines in the sand, I lay my weapons at my feet and raise my hands toward Heaven. I came today to stand, but he can’t bear to see me rise. Pummeled to the earth, I crawl into my past. Above me looms the victor, proud as rough-hewn stone. He sees only my skin, dark as his coal-black eyes. Sharp enough to pierce my heart, his blade too blunt to scar my soul. I gaze at him standing over me—a bolt of lightning ready to strike. The wind caresses my hair. My final breath escapes into the breeze.

All across the field, pollen spills from blossoms.

beyond Jordan
so far from my bones—
milk and honey

The Last Exit

It begins somewhere in the nebulous inklings of REM sleep, at just about midnight, as we’re speeding down a quiet wooded road. Sara has the wheel in a stranglehold. We’re in the midst of a major tiff.

From out of the darkness, a pair of glowering-white eyes suddenly appears in the headlights. Instead of hitting the brakes, Sara flips the overdrive switch. The car leaves the ground with a whoosh and transforms into a flying carpet in the shape of a raven. Gravity pulls at the pit of my stomach. Sara is nowhere to be seen.

My temper slowly settles to a simmer as the raven-carpet soars higher and higher into the moonless, starlit night. Soon the earth vanishes, and the rug pulls over next to a narrow set of stairs stretching upward in the direction of the constellation Orion. Three hula dancers step forward to greet me with leis in their outstretched hands. They lead the way, swaying hypnotically in the starlight, strewing petals along the steps. Together we climb into an endless realm of sky as my thoughts reach out for Sara.

oh, that I had never left
such echoes in your ears . . .
butterflies
morph into wolves
feasting on my words

Saint Peter stands at the top of the stairs next to Sara and an archangel wielding a trumpet. Suddenly, the horn sounds and the stairs fall away.

Falling is far from flying. There is no bottom to space. Stars whiz by as a cold sweat pours out onto the sheets. The dream ends with a lurch, and I wake up feeling unworthy.


Anchors Aweigh

my muse and I
make love on the placid page
soon drenched
as Hokusai’s Great Wave
breaks on our shore

There is a quiet here—save for the clack of my Smith Corona*—that only midnight knows. I think about the end of our relationship, Jennifer, fiddling a few words about it onto the page as my inspirational sprite slumbers—for the moment satiated—in the chambers of my mind. This is not a song or a sonnet—more a lament. I know you left for all the right reasons . . .

Oh, snap! Try writing about something else for a change.

Let’s see, there were the childhood fishing trips—toting the skiff through the underbrush—and, once we were afloat, the fish came to us. Grandmother’s battered bluegills, Norwegian soul food.

Damn, dwelling in the past again.

I have this midnight—it’s mine alone. Bouncing from memories to figments of imagination, the blur of these digits searching for a future where you swoon at the sound of my poetic voice. Instead, dear Jen, I find myself back in that boat, bobbing alone on this turbulent sea. It’s not like we drifted apart, though. No, we leaned on the oars and rowed in different directions.

origami ship
sailing out of sight . . .
lucky for me
when you packed your bags
you didn’t take my muse 

Ribbons Spring 2023


Exponential

My muse has seduced me again.

You’re the Writer. You’re the only one who can write it.
It’s your responsibility to write it—your duty!

So, here I sit, fingers massaging keys that whisper letters and words—whispers spun into sentences, woven into paragraphs, loved into poems.

bearing gifts
for a barren hillside—
one sprouting seed
swaddled in sheets
of rain

Contemporary Haibun Online, 19.1, April 2023


The Road to Tomorrow

here on the road to tomorrow
footprints drift back
into the past

as we turn to learn
where we’ve come to be
we can see the leaves have changed

but nothing changes how i feel
i stand in awe of you
i see you watching out for me
there’s so much I must do for you
the truth is that I love you more
with every passing day

on this journey of
so many steps
we’ve wandered through our dreams
it seems to me
we’ve plucked them easy
from those meadows by the sea

but then there were the mountains
the rivers and the streams
the thunder and the raindrops
the times we took to cry and
the times we picked ourselves back up
to give it one more try

now I look into your eyes
the sunlight shining down
windows in the wall
we’re calling out to memories
of things we’ve seen and still believe

a crescent glow
shapes the sky,
another night,
the pale moonlight
bringing us
together

the weather vane
is standing still
though storms may gather in the hills
another trial we’ll surely face.
that other place we’ve never been
lies waiting

please remember
that it’s what we need
to live this life
complete with dreams

beyond the meadows by the sea
past the boulders in the road
we’re seeking stories still untold
mysteries yet to break the mold
all i see is eternity
reflected in your clear blue eyes
while life is not a game
we play it anyway.


H2O

from milliliters
to drips
to puddles, streams, and ponds
lakes, springs, rivers, and seas
ice and fog and cloud and rain
steam, sweat, and tears

i am a set of molecules
conceived only who knows how?
a consumer of myself
a circle bound to its radius
i follow the flow
bearing the gift
of a quenching sip
i get up and walk
swim the deep
sail the sky
burrow into the earth

i am root
i am leaf
i am hoof
i am wing
i am scale
i am fur
i am me
i am you
you are me
you are you

you are the reflection in a puddle
i am the damp on your cheek
your eyes see faces in the clouds
i drizzle

we are ripples
we are waves
we are snow
we are hail

we are one in the timeless sea

but i will always remember you
by the way i see you now

just another drop in the bucket
splashing around.


A Gentleman’s Game

too philosophical with my bishop, again
my opponent overwhelms me with his rooks
in football, the term is “obvious pain”
in love, it could be called a “mortal wound”
in war, i guess they call it “checkmate”
it’s a game gentlemen play
gentlemen from Mars
bearing the seal
of the Great State of Confusion
flying the banner of the Order

draw up lines—choose sides
decide what’s right and wrong for the other guy
validate cheating
set rewards for dealing
from the bottom of the deck
now shake hands
act like friends

this game doesn’t concern the peasantry
they’re still peasants
and there are more now than ever

now is a good time for a war
the football season is almost over
murder the pawns, bishops, rooks, and running backs
hang the queen
guillotine her knights in shining armored personnel carriers
draw and quarter the quarterback off in a stretcher

stalemate—shell shocked—reset the board

black or white?


The Inside Solution

I’ve somehow abandoned my keys
they’re the most lost set of keys
on the planet
or perhaps they feel mighty free right now
whatever

guilty from birth
I forever lose objects, people, my mind, the way
my subconscious mantra of
I must possess
surfaces on pedestrian occasions

a small ask
just some “lost and found” justice
not for memories shed, no
on this corner of the globe
with my ship adrift, I’m more in need of a sail

time to deal with
abandonment issues
let this loss be what it is, lost
get new keys from the landlord
swim out of the ether and dry myself off

all attempts to distract from the goal
thwarted at the entrance
soft tissue, nerves, bones, and brain resist
I turn my thoughts within
and wait for daylight

possessing a key is a full-time commitment
but what about mismatched keys?
I write a poem for each
separate them
from the clutter in my mind

right at home in the bewilder-ness, I am
call me mad, they do
I don’t know how they know
because I only talk to others
when I’m alone.