From the Ground Up

a poor harvest
of winter wheat . . .
still, I grind the grain
on the old stone wheel
then sow the fields again

It’s morning. Nails protrude through loose floorboards, throw rugs lie threadbare. Like ghosts, curtains hang over shuttered windows. A steady drip from the kitchen faucet echoes down the hall. The closet door is off its hinges.

The other side of the bed is empty, just as it’s been every morning for the past three years. But I’ve had enough. I get up, throw open the window, pick up my hammer, and start pounding the floor.


Driftwood

The wandering woman curls her toes into the sand as a wave cascades over her feet. The cool, frothy wash provides an interesting contrast to the heat of the merciless sun above. As the wave recedes, it leaves a small patch of seaweed on the beach. The next wave rolls in and washes it back into the sea.

As she continues down the beach, each new wave caresses her ears with a methodical roar and swish as it crashes and then rushes back into the path of the next oncoming wave. Sometimes a wave just covers her toes, while other times, the water goes up to her knees. The sand is ever shifting with her thoughts.

we were born into this life
to be what we can be . . .
to believe
our dreams are real
and all that we’ve imagined

“What shall become of me?” she wonders.


Dreamories

~Chicago: In the Hypnopompic State of Illinois, USA

In the early hours of a brand new day, I back my car out of the garage and park it temporarily on the street. The ominous sky above tangles in my mind with the distant memories of a long-lost wife. Slowly my thoughts turn and wander around the corner where I find myself wondering if animals have dreams…

thunder brings the rain—
my cat curls up
to take a nap
on the dry side
of the window

What I’ve discovered is that dreams are bittersweet and memories are just along for the ride. Driving down the back alleys of my mind I see a sign that reads “NO U-TURN.” Breaking that law is just not possible. We’re not programmed that way…

rays bleeding
through wounded skies…
across the lake
a skipping stone eventually
complies with gravity

A car door opens somewhere inside my thoughts. I step out and begin to wonder where I’ll be tomorrow. I wonder if the squirrels in the almond trees believe in God. I wonder if God believes in me. I’m wandering through a forest of moments, dancing with my waking memories but the waking’s really all I need to begin another dream…

in the taste of morning
a fleeting dance
unfurls
as sunlight
greets the leaves


The Magic Kitchen

Rita says she’d like some soup. It’s Christmas Eve, so my reaction is to ask her, “What kind of soup would you like?”

Oh, let me see, something vegetably, maybe a bit potato-ee. You know, peas and carrots and lots of broth, a dash of salt, onions, and celery; a chunk of chicken, perhaps—something like that. Mmm, hearty stuff that sticks to my bones, warms my toes and fills my nose with memories of mother and father and sister and brother all gathered around the table many years ago. Just one big, happy family—filled with wonder, thankful for each other, hands clasped in prayer—the one now living in this photo album I’ve been thumbing through all night.

Can I see?” I lean in and begin to absorb the flavor of her memories as her fingers weave back and forth through the pages of faded imagery.

silent night . . .
the warmth of her feet
by the embers

I turn my attention to her kitchen and quickly realize I am in a bind. There’s practically nothing in the fridge—the shelves are nearly bare. The stores are closed, and the gift I brought her, a woolen sweater, is clearly not edible. Well, in the fridge, in an otherwise empty drawer, I find half of a raw potato. That’s a start, I mutter to myself. Carefully, I slice and dice it—skin and all—then back to the icebox to see what’s left to see. 

Aha, a box of chicken broth tucked in the back, but wait, the expiration date, December 25th, 2022; whew, a bell’s jingle to spare. Back to the fridge, check the drawer again. Waitwhat’s this? A stalk of celery. Hmm. Chop, chop, chop—into the pot. That must be just about it. But perhaps it’s worth another look. Let’s see . . . nothing in the freezer, but when I turn, there on a hook, a bunch of carrots like ornaments on a tree. Ho, ho, ho, into the stock, chunks of root go plop, plop, plop. 

One more look in the bottom drawer, simply because I cannot seem to trust my tricky eyes. To my surprise, an onion appears. With tears, I peel and marry it with the soul of the stew.

Did I leave the freezer door ajar or did it just swing open ‘cuz the unit’s out of level? Hmm. A good thing either way, ‘cuz I wouldn’t have seen the chicken I missed on my first expedition through its wintry depths. The bird will have to thaw in the pot. I ease it in. The broth’s getting hot.

Pinch the last pinch of salt from the shaker; bring the aromatic dish to a simmer.

I sit at the kitchen table watching snowflakes twirl in the light softened by the frosty window. When the vegetables and meat are tender, I pull out a serving tray, arrange a bowl, spoon, and napkin, ladle a savory helping of soup, and decorate it with sprigs of celery leaves. 

Carefully, I back my way through the swinging door from the kitchen space into the dining place. 

As I turn to call out Rita’s name, I am met with a bewildering scene. On the table, fully set for a feast, sits the largest turkey I’ve ever witnessed. Surrounding a slew of holiday dishes and an unused trivet near the turkey’s tail, two kids sit with a pair of grownups—hand-in-hand—reciting the Lord’s Prayer. There is one unoccupied chair. They all look up together, and together they smile at me.

stockings filled with candy . . .
the sound of many hooves
prancing in the snow

No Quarter

fields of cotton . . .
we sing “Amazing Grace”
with the larks

Pine shadows rest on the flowering dogwood. Steadfast, we’ve marched to this place. The Southern Cross and Old Glory wave—colors of this April day. Soon the sky will turn to smoke and spider lilies will weep. Rows of soldiers stand in the oaks as we kneel near the Poison Spring. A cloud obscures the sun, and I hear the battle cry. The air swells thick with blood. Recalling their chains, I pull the trigger.

wasps
in the beehive—
family feud

Once, twice, they charge, then scurry back to their holes. Hurrah! The eagle soars.

But songs of the master’s whip haunt this battlefield. As ghostly boots breach lines in the sand, I lay my weapons at my feet and raise my hands toward Heaven. I came today to stand, but he can’t bear to see me rise. Pummeled to the earth, I crawl into my past. Above me looms the victor, proud as rough-hewn stone. He sees only my skin, dark as his coal-black eyes. Sharp enough to pierce my heart, his blade too blunt to scar my soul. I gaze at him standing over me—a bolt of lightning ready to strike. The wind caresses my hair. My final breath escapes into the breeze.

All across the field, pollen spills from blossoms.

beyond Jordan
so far from my bones—
milk and honey

The Last Exit

It begins somewhere in the nebulous inklings of REM sleep, at just about midnight, as we’re speeding down a quiet wooded road. Sara has the wheel in a stranglehold. We’re in the midst of a major tiff.

From out of the darkness, a pair of glowering-white eyes suddenly appears in the headlights. Instead of hitting the brakes, Sara flips the overdrive switch. The car leaves the ground with a whoosh and transforms into a flying carpet in the shape of a raven. Gravity pulls at the pit of my stomach. Sara is nowhere to be seen.

My temper slowly settles to a simmer as the raven-carpet soars higher and higher into the moonless, starlit night. Soon the earth vanishes, and the rug pulls over next to a narrow set of stairs stretching upward in the direction of the constellation Orion. Three hula dancers step forward to greet me with leis in their outstretched hands. They lead the way, swaying hypnotically in the starlight, strewing petals along the steps. Together we climb into an endless realm of sky as my thoughts reach out for Sara.

oh, that I had never left
such echoes in your ears . . .
butterflies
morph into wolves
feasting on my words

Saint Peter stands at the top of the stairs next to Sara and an archangel wielding a trumpet. Suddenly, the horn sounds and the stairs fall away.

Falling is far from flying. There is no bottom to space. Stars whiz by as a cold sweat pours out onto the sheets. The dream ends with a lurch, and I wake up feeling unworthy.


Anchors Aweigh

my muse and I
make love on the placid page
soon drenched
as Hokusai’s Great Wave
breaks on our shore

There is a quiet here—save for the clack of my Smith Corona*—that only midnight knows. I think about the end of our relationship, Jennifer, fiddling a few words about it onto the page as my inspirational sprite slumbers—for the moment satiated—in the chambers of my mind. This is not a song or a sonnet—more a lament. I know you left for all the right reasons . . .

Oh, snap! Try writing about something else for a change.

Let’s see, there were the childhood fishing trips—toting the skiff through the underbrush—and, once we were afloat, the fish came to us. Grandmother’s battered bluegills, Norwegian soul food.

Damn, dwelling in the past again.

I have this midnight—it’s mine alone. Bouncing from memories to figments of imagination, the blur of these digits searching for a future where you swoon at the sound of my poetic voice. Instead, dear Jen, I find myself back in that boat, bobbing alone on this turbulent sea. It’s not like we drifted apart, though. No, we leaned on the oars and rowed in different directions.

origami ship
sailing out of sight . . .
lucky for me
when you packed your bags
you didn’t take my muse 

Ribbons Spring 2023


Exponential

My muse has seduced me again.

You’re the Writer. You’re the only one who can write it.
It’s your responsibility to write it—your duty!

So, here I sit, fingers massaging keys that whisper letters and words—whispers spun into sentences, woven into paragraphs, loved into poems.

bearing gifts
for a barren hillside—
one sprouting seed
swaddled in sheets
of rain

Contemporary Haibun Online, 19.1, April 2023


T Minus 10

Spaceman, always looking up, a compass with no needle, lost it shooting up. Always shy half-a-moon, he’s off to Heaven to file a complaint—too many burned-out stars, more every day; got to get to Heaven . . . make a few changes.

soup kitchen steps
for a pillow
his last night on earth

Failed Haiku, Issue 86, February 2023


H2O

from milliliters
to drips
to puddles, streams, and ponds
lakes, springs, rivers, and seas
ice and fog and cloud and rain
steam, sweat, and tears

i am a set of molecules
conceived only who knows how?
a consumer of myself
a circle bound to its radius
i follow the flow
bearing the gift
of a quenching sip
i get up and walk
swim the deep
sail the sky
burrow into the earth

i am root
i am leaf
i am hoof
i am wing
i am scale
i am fur
i am me
i am you
you are me
you are you

you are the reflection in a puddle
i am the damp on your cheek
your eyes see faces in the clouds
i drizzle

we are ripples
we are waves
we are snow
we are hail

we are one in the timeless sea

but i will always remember you
by the way i see you now

just another drop in the bucket
splashing around.