Compound Interest

I’m the Moolah of addiction
pushing proceeds of affliction
demand for my brand of self-infliction
at an all-time high

the division of humanity
a principal condition
of this nuclear religion
in a split-hair decision
the jury fully bribed
rendered its conviction
and the mandatory incision
was surgically applied

it’s in the books—
the balance of power
my side of the ledger—
fatter than yours
Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers . . .
I’m a natural born demon
don’t tax your brain
you’ll never be able to demonetize me
shame, shame, shame; I pull the trigger
you’re a stiff on sale at my target range
rigor mortis with a baseball bat
I’m the guy running ‘round in a baseball cap
ready to cap your pathetic ass

I’m the best kind of evil since Evil Knievel
but the best is yet to come
we’ll charge ’em all with words
then commence to hurling stones
run right through their heathen ranks
assault their flanks
with spears, arrows, and bows
it’s far too slow, though, to reach a conclusion
soil soaked in blood—just half the solution
the war’s not won; it’s an empty illusion
got to incinerate their entire delusion

prime the cannons; rain hell from the sky
that’s how the other guy
will balance the equation
fuel the machines of brut devastation
kill each other without hesitation
flip the switch of annihilation
sip the Kool Aid; it’ll soften the blow

and, that’s the end of my proclamation
I’ve been around since before creation
banking on a race seeking domination
I’m the sole beneficiary of its mutual cremation.

Destinations

damn
gravel in my shoe again
toe’s sticking through the hole in my sock
i kneel
adjust my worn-out footwear
stare at the patterns in the cracked pavement
how many miles
to my destination
somewhere beyond this highway sign?
sign says, “Slower traffic, keep right”
i’m on the shoulder
can’t get much slower
well, that’s not entirely true
before leaving home
i was going nowhere
before going nowhere
i had dreams

red car, yellow car, black car, white car
color don’t mean that much to me
i ride in ‘em all without reserve
got to conserve my energy, though
haven’t eaten in two days
don’t know which is louder
the rumble in my stomach
or the sound of trucks
rambling down the road
cars blur by
and into the sunset
one more hour
and i’ll call it a day
one more hour with my thumb out
i’ve got nothing else to do
but, hope is on my side
and one thing’s for certain
a ride always comes along

truck drivers, motorcycle riders
delivery men, and policemen
moonshiners, fanatics, drunks, and drug addicts
vacationers, hippies, and families with children
gamblers, preachers, horny men and women
a menagerie of virtue and vice
all with one thing in common
they stopped on the side of the road
and let me in
each taking me someplace i’d never been
some with ulterior motives
some with a sense of adventure
some needing someone to talk to
some fed me
some fucked me
some tried to rob me
some even blessed me

i’ve stood by the road in torrential rain
endured thunder, lightning, and relentless hail
trekked through blizzards in the mountains
melted in the desert’s merciless sun
bathed nude in ice cold rivers
slept under the stars by the overpass
I’ve been to every state in the Union
mostly on the back of my thumb
it was a great way to get there
when i didn’t care where there was and
didn’t need to get there
in some kind of a rush

i stepped out of nowhere’s door
many years ago
picked up an education
my companion for a lifetime
and, here now i stand
at home by the side of this highway
certain as certain can be
that soon again i’ll be
exactly where i’ve never been.

Figments of Truth

i look at myself
in the mirror each day
study this decaying flesh
draped on ancient bones
the truth of a thousand lies
buried behind these tombstone eyes
gas on a funeral pyre
match in hand
i set the mess ablaze
wrap a noose around my neck
head off to work myself to death
i’m a train wreck wrapped in a business suit
a facade in need of a coat of paint
polluting the world nine-to-five
looting the gullible
causing trouble wherever I go
i’m living in a bubble
of iniquity
layers and layers of duplicity
shield me from this complicity
i am the prince of greed and collusion
ask me what i think of myself
i’ll tell you i like what i see in the mirror
delusions set aside, it’s a matter of pride
if i tell you the truth, the illusion will die.

Plausible Pliability

lizard dreams
got to let my spikes down
catch a little shut-eye
try to remember
that tune i forgot
walking off the blues the other day
mumbling hints of jazz.

i must be a rock
because here I am again
ready to grow moss
still eating kelp like Popeye
swilling wine like Bacchus
got to get my muffins
out the oven.

was born half warlock—half witch
conjured up a parade when i was nine
no bubblegum on my heel
that’s not the way i roll
mine’s stuck to your shoe
look, but don’t disturb it
it’s a masterpiece
of elastic art in the making.

Starry Night

on the precipice, i stand
the canyon below
gathering shadows in its hungry maw
my eyes plunge into the last of day
so near, her rays
i can almost touch them
one more step and i’ll be in Heaven

been chasing the sun for years
with every step, i’m farther behind
here on this ledge, watching it slip
into yet another sleepless night
weary bones chafe my soul
the razor’s edge between right and wrong
dulled by this religion of holy addiction

footprints in the dust, useless waypoints
swept away by wind and rain
don’t know from which direction i came
too many hours spent following clouds
gas in the tank for a trip to the dealer
but not enough change in the ashtray
for a tune-up

hallucinating romantic notions
into happily hazardous delusions
i fight with my demons over loaded dice
it’s a battle of pirogues; we drown in the drink
night-after-night; it’s a three-ring circus
i wake up stomped into pachyderm fodder

damn, it’s a long way down
but i just can’t stand to sink any lower
i step away from the crag
plot a course though the starlit night
compass pointing toward dawn,
my destination’s not on the map, but i realize
Heaven’s not waiting at the bottom of a cliff

A Brush with Fate

a painting
of a boy
playing on the beach . . .
the sea now swollen
swallowing the man

Monsieur Beaufont, an aristocrat from Paris, is throwing a housewarming party. He’s just migrated to New Orleans with his family and has encouraged his wife to sing for the guests.

Bernard, in scuffed penny loafers and faded felt fedora, is always fashionably late but today his arrival is almost posthumous. He trundles past his host with a muttered “Thank you” and makes his way to a back corner of the parlor, his trademark slouch defying gravity only with the help of a hickory cane, and now, the wall.

I’ve known Bernard since childhood. We met during a match of marbles on the school playground and later played football together. He’s since amassed a small fortune navigating the mines in the stock market and by keeping the strings pulled tight on his purse. His lips barely move when he speaks, something he does only under duress. He rarely ventures out these days so it’s a surprise to see him here now. I consider going over to speak with him but he’s commanding the corner with a scowl.

Bernard has one magnetic attribute that we share, a passion for classical music. Symphonies, arias, concertos, and minuets arouse his spirit. I know not to disrupt him while Cassandra is singing a capella Puccini’s “Un bel dì vedremo” from Madame Butterfly. Perhaps we’ll have a brief conversation when he’s done applauding.

Cassandra, a striking soprano fills the stately room with a voice much larger than her petite self. The flaxen-haired nightingale brings tears to Bernard’s eyes. I watch him lean over his cane, straining to absorb every syllable, every note as she casts her spell on the listeners.
When the song ends, Bernard leans his cane against his belly and begins to clap. I wander over and wait for him to finish, then proclaim “That was wonderful!”

“It was not enough,” he grumbles.

“Perhaps she’ll sing another,” I suggest.

“Maybe. I’ve got to pee.”

I watch him hobble to the washroom. Cassandra comes over and introduces herself. Bernard should be here. I tell her how much I enjoyed the song. She says, “Thank you” then moves on to the next guest. I’m left to wonder if there was ever a goddess so graceful, anyone as lucky as Monsieur Beaufont, or a man as untimely as Bernard.

consulting
the hands
of a broken watch
the captain sets sail
on a low tide

First published in Contemporary Haibun Online

Timestamp

As autumn slowly fades into winter’s relentless grasp, I find myself wandering back through the pages of my mind, watching piles of leaves I raked this morning skitter across the lawn in a gusting late-afternoon wind. The world has turned the color of pumpkins raining from the sky. My mood is festive yet somber; the harvest celebration approaches, but there are not enough fingers and toes on my body to count all the faces missing in this picture. On a quiet hill overlooking my village, I come upon a stand of oaks and wonder why I never climbed them. I pick up an acorn the squirrels left behind, carry it back to the house, and place it on the mantle next to my father’s ashes.

a canopy of clouds
muffles the wolf’s howl
. . . midnight moon

Flicker

We danced through spring, held hands all summer, embarked on strolls through groves of falling leaves.

Beside the fire, this winter’s eve, crackles in our ears simmer with the echoes of fearless whispers. Hearts as warm as the old stone hearth, we’ve sparks in our eyes this breathless night. A gentle snow is falling outside, settling deep in drifts of timeless moments.

brewing hot cocoa . . .
the way you fan the embers
to reignite the flame

Center of the Universe

wind plays
in fields i once roamed
a billion
blades of grass bending
with the shifting sky

What you saw on that empty hillside many decades ago, I’ll never really know because you carried that vision with you into the earth. What you made of it though, remains a pleasant memory even if time has wasted no time in etching it slowly away. The shelves in the spare room have other people’s stuff on them now. The cobwebs in the attic are new. The rock garden has been ripped out but ants in the yard are still building castles in the sand.

I can remember the creaky sequence of five doors opening and closing through the garage and into the kitchen. A wooden thunk, a spring, a click, a gentle yawn, a clunk. Did you purposely build that into my memories of you? I mean, there you were on the foundation of your dreams raising a home where I could come alive. What I took away from that is nothing less than the stuff of a mythical adventure.

Still, it wasn’t a structure that stood at the center of my universe. It was you. Wood and stone and plaster were no match for your wit, patience, and capacity to love and forgive. What you built beside that little hill can’t be measured with watch or stick. Every year the leaves come falling down. I’m sorry, I can’t rake them all, but that never really mattered to you, now did it?

dreams conceived beneath the stars
have returned to the meadow
where life remains
a poem on the lips
of a child

Battle Cry

I tilt my head left to right to left, then forward and back to forward. Roll it around. Shrug my shoulders down, then up, down, then up. Fingers squeeze, stretch, squeeze, stretch. Rotate wrists—bend at the knees, bend, stand and bend. Now at the waste, touch my toes, breathing in, breathing out. Shake it, shake it. Put on some jazz—the needle in the groove popping and crackling . . . settle in at my desk.

The pen is mightier . . . it’s so proclaimed.
I press the keys
and set out to prove it . . .

worldwide love
on the nightly news—
dreaming up
a brand new brand
of species