Gibberish

don’t ask me what they’re all about—these words so devoutly spewing from my mouth
as if some great meaning i espoused to riot in while you were out

in the runes of my reality
“i don’t know why” remains
the grandest understatement
from little trains of thought wasted
on the road to re-evaluation, to the nick of time, and elation

rest assured, i might not be
safe to say; whatever said meant
you’ll never remember; what’s to forget
the facts so displayed without regret
defenseless, so intended
so, why not dispense with any more pretenses
and simply be on our way
just to know we’ve done it is enough
that’s all i have to say

Bearing the Sacred News

morning’s pale sliver
nearly unperceivable
the taste of yesterday, still heavy in the air
our 911 sent to God
radio waves prayed into space
an SOS from humanity
seeking absolution, deliverance from calamity
swallowed by the void
just beyond the stratosphere . . .

whatever’s left of it, anyway . . .

thermonuclear winter’s arrived
the escape spaceships never flew
diamonds couldn’t make them fly
we drank bottled water until we drowned
fences built around our towns
just mudslides where the last trees fell
bridges burn beneath our feet
blistered souls and ashened hopes . . .

still, we search for signs . . .

the sundial’s soot-stained face
wears no trace of time
another evening without smiles
or is it still just afternoon?
we, the weary, plod ahead . . .
lemmings leaping from a cliff
adrift in a sea of disbelief
frigid tides flow through our veins
calling out the Savior’s name
echoes spill into the waves
someone pulls the plug
with fingers clinging to our sins
one by one, we vanish
down the drain.

Free Ride

fog swirls
over roads once strolled
shadows drifting
in the folds of my mind
forming stories in the gray

It’s 9 pm. A truck stop in the distance peers from the dark, welcoming. The on-ramp is quiet, and it’s been a weary day. I hoist my backpack and head toward the lights, three dollars in my pocket, with the goal in mind to get myself a cup or two of hot chicken broth.

I push the button on the coffee machine and a cup drops down. A stream of broth begins to flow. It’s the only thing I can stomach from this device. It will keep me warm for the moment, a little comfort to remind me of home, a 25-cent swallow or two of Heaven on the road. Put another quarter in the slot, order a second helping of sustenance before stepping back out into the neon Iowa night.

I approach a truck driver and ask if he might give me a lift. He tells me the corporation forbids giving anyone a ride. Trudging back to the on-ramp, I study the glow of lightning deep in the distant sky. For three hours, cars and trucks drive by, ignoring my thumb as if it was a mile marker. Exhaustion sets in. It’s time to sleep, but where? I watch the lightning edge closer. Between the rumble of engines, thunder.

I walk into the tall grass between the highway and the on-ramp, pull out my sleeping bag and hunker down. Headlights sweep over me as the traffic flows. I toss and turn as the wind picks up and the storm approaches.

There’s no such thing as sleep. As the first hint of dawn arrives, lightning dazzles the world around. Just as I finish rolling up my bag, the rain begins to patter. Before I get to the road, I’m drenched in a Midwest monsoon.

I’m standing in a light show, taking a shower, the cold wind chafing my bones. Thumb extended from a shivering arm, car after truck after car after truck. Will I melt into this puddle growing at my feet?

Finally, a minivan pulls over, rusted and a hundred-years-old. I jog to the door. The driver tells me, “Put your pack in the back.” I settle in and we’re off. “Sorry,” he says, “the heater doesn’t work.” I stare down at cracks in the pavement through holes in the ancient floor.

the pilgrim
on a journey through time
finds a broken watch
realizes he’s arrived
just in time

Commercial Breakdown

go ahead
slip in dangling modifier
an unexplained pronoun
or a hyped-up verb
no one’s watching
i do it all the time
people say it’s the right thing to do
logic doesn’t sell
but functions well as a novelty
just offend my sensibilities
i can shut them off
at will
i’m a consumer
and your brand
is the only product line
that makes me feel right inside
don’t want to be left out
tell me more
about the other folks
you’ve helped into the mainstream
and how thick my mask should be
i’m a consumer and i want to know
price is no object
there’s credit on my card
and i can always take a pill
for the nausea.

Movement

for Johanna.

halls painted
in dancing candlelight . . .
my breathing tuned
to the echoes
of your footsteps

How could a memory from 40-years ago tug at me as yours does now? How did you manage to grow in my psyche with such strong roots? I invited you in long ago. But, I thought when we parted, you took what was yours and left. But, damn it; you left me with a smile and a hug and a kiss and a photo of you beaming like the sun. Every year or two, I take it out and there you are, a moment in my life when love took me by the hand and waltzed me into the future. Now, here I stand with the seeds you planted flourishing in my mind. Looking down at my feet, 40-years spent living in your garden doesn’t seem like a very long time.

a breeze
orchestrates the wind chimes . . .
tapping my feet
to the rhythm of your heart
carried around in my head

First published in Contemporary Haibun Online 20.1

Origami Clouds

why do you glare at me so bright
that blank stare of a dare
to trespass → → → → → → on hallowed white

but, no SIGNS_______no rules__________no lines to read between____
the owner’s manual makes it official
yes, i am the full-fledged owner of a once-blank sheet of paper
now i’m free to scribble
or perhaps write a decree → nail it to a telephone pole → invest in a ream of this stuff
‘cuz, it’s starting to get crowded on this page
thinking of hanging it on the wall and starting a new one

but the idea of driving a nail
through my trusty friend
kind of bugs me →

and i’m easily bugged → about friends with nails in them
they hang around → until someone tears ‘em down

shreds of dead trees littering city streets
torn-down friends
abused and forgotten

newspaper for a blanket → or for wrapping dishes
now, i’m worked up over newspaper blankets → and empty bowls

all these marks
in the once-empty space
breadcrumbs . . .
leading the eye on its path
don’t look back ← we might ram a tree

i’m reading between the lines . . .
thumbing down the road
through once-virgin forest
pondering my navel
and the miracle of recycled paper

you must pre-un-PRE-APPROVE me
and you cannot replace my apartment windows
my roof, my plumbing,
my AC, my heat
get your facts straight
i don’t need 258 channels of spam
that won’t fit in my can of a room

paper with too many lines
so small, so tight
can’t read between them
but somewhere buried . . . deep beneath them
a Medieval twist of the trident

damn all this modern symbolism
not a syllogism in sight
so much crap on the paper
you can’t even write a poem on it

and it’s messing up my feng shui
can’t take me out for a walk
mow the grass
trim the hedges
water the flowers
or even wipe my ass

could paper my walls with it, i guess
nope, it’s an apartment
never mind the feng shui dilemma

turn me sideways
i’m looking crooked
or maybe the mirror isn’t straight
either way
time’s-a-ticking
if there’s a sensible solution
perhaps this ink
isn’t flowing out of my veins . . . in vain

these words
ain’t no manifesto
or a deed to the door of my soul
no, more a proof of purchase
a canceled stamp
says we’ve arrived
i scratch my crotch
yup, i’m alive

as thunder rolls
through this night
in the encroaching glow
of lightning
and the impending threat of tornadoes
i walk outside to take a look
come inside and jot these thoughts

sometimes all it takes
is a grand display of nature
to seduce my creative mind
into doing crazy things
albeit crazy things
like spreading my own propaganda
on digital sheets of paper
marked with virtual dots of ink
0s and 1s in a lump sum game
don’t be alarmed
not a single tree was harmed
in the creation
of this poem

the earth turns
and we play till we drop
words are worthy
of full-size print
there is no pulp
to this reality
the pages filled
with light and shadow

should i abandon my clutch
of unwritten poems
or should they breathe
as free-roaming thoughts should breathe?
it’s possibility I see
watering seeds
one row at a time
letters on the page
blur the lines
between fact and fantasy
the only difference is degree

nevermind the band
we hired them for the wedding
but the bride never showed up
all those invitations gone to waste
somewhere, a tree
lost its life
for a train wreck
the groom’s got no poems
to suit the moment

drop a dime in the jukebox
listen to the strains
of country love gone wrong
makes tears in my beer
taste better

drain the glass
head back to the back
for a moment or two of relief
then step out into the rain
take the long walk home
rap to myself
about climbing trees
got to write a poem
about climbing trees

if everyone climbed a tree
we’d all have something in common
never mind that we were all born
that’s just too common a thing to have in common

but if we all climbed a tree
we would see we’re all breathing foul air
how chopping down all the trees
could suffocate us
how polluting the water
could poison us all
how nuclear war
is not a game for shared planets
so, never mind tomorrow’s poem
i recycled it today
the one i wrote yesterday
was stolen by a time bandit

the poet’s pen
is doodling again
got to get out of the house

i walk to the park
near the city center
sit on the bench
near Sister Louise feeding pigeons
watching a boy at the water’s edge
launching his origami ship
causing ripples in the reflections
of passing clouds.

March 7, 1965

I remember mornings when milk came in bottles
left on the front doorstep
when battles on the black-and-white news
couldn’t match our imaginations triggered
by trains rolling down the tracks
headed from somewhere to somewhere
we knew the boxcars by name
listened to the warm steel rails
never had a clue that once the choo choos
carried human cargo
never heard a peep about what happened
that brutal Bloody Sunday March day
I was an oblivious five-year-old
it was the spring of salamanders
the Edmund Pettus bridge
in Selma, Alabama
light-years away
I’d never experienced racial hate
segregation, human degradation
I’m thankful I didn’t get that brand
of education
I didn’t know about Emancipation
how it’s been ignored
by others on the other side of the law
I look around today
1965 doesn’t seem that far away
I’m waking ‘round in skin
and so is everyone else
that doesn’t seem to sink in
with those who claim supremacy
asserting their authority
comes from above.

Following In His Own Footsteps

he tends his dreams
’til the break of dawn . . .
songbirds
gathering in the field
signal it’s time to harvest

Here, beneath the clouds, a boy feels the first drops of sky dripping from the leaves. Soon he’s a walking sponge, the trail oozing around his soles. A humming patter lulls the forest to sleep. He pauses at the top of a rise, the valley below frozen in time like an Ansel Adams photograph.

damp moss
blankets a rotting log . . .
time perfumes the air
with the sweet scent of death
feeding life

He takes the long way home. But when he gets there, he just keeps walking—walking into the sunset.

many paths traveled . . .
the pilgrim
follows a dove
as if it could carry
a mountain

Fifty years later, on another rainy day, he pulls out a weathered memory, and like a muddy shoe, begins to clean it off. He feels drenched cotton clinging to his skin, sees a shaft of sunlight poking through the clouds. He hears a chipmunk chirp. A doe and fawn bound across the trail. Then out comes the rainbow that told him to move on.

repurposing
toybox relics—
viewing the moon
through his kaleidoscope
he finds a field of stars

First published in Ribbons Volume 19, Number 1 Spring/Summer 2023

Overexposed

that old song
stuck in a groove . . .
flashbacks

You occupy half the space; your smile dominates the composition. I look happy—must have been—I was holding hands with you. Here we are in posterity between my finger and thumb. How have I become so numb to file you in the circular file, to banish you from this time and space, to leave behind what could not be, to set aside what you meant to me?

Turn the page. Another display of happy faces, you half dressed, my hair a mess—nothing like obliviousness to paint a carefree picture. Two criminals of love, abusers of each other’s lust, nightmares passing in the hall, emotions bouncing off the walls. “They’re the perfect couple,” others said.

If they’d only read between the lines, watched the tears drip from our eyes, peeled the masks from our pasted smiles, traveled a while in our pain and fears, got a good look at what’s etched inside.

dream castle
my bones too frail
to scale the stone

My Queen—your face framed with gold . . . heart so heavy, I could not hold it—we clicked for a while, got sick for a while, shutters closed on the grand hotel; we fell into a spell of disrepair.

So, here we sit in the kitchen, scattered as we always were. Bits and fragments of laughs echo off the ceiling. I’m in this for the healing, so don’t mind the mess. I’m clearing off this table—letting go of the emptiness.

a blink—
your face
slips out of focus